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14th March is a white valentine .. a fren of mine told me this while in the college. I thought it will be a good day. White valentine is the day where guys suppose to give gals choc .. Sounds nice and and kewl rite .. neway. Everything was kewl .. until Kent called .. "U noe who is Pn Tan Poay Hoon? She just passed away this morning ..... " Pn Tan ? dun think i noe who is that, nvm .. but ..sad that CHS lost another teacher.

Went back, looked into magazine .. get a shock. Chen Pei Fen ?! The another thing is .. i must be wrong ..double check the name, yeah. it is Tan Poay Hoon aka Chen Pei Fen ..a BC teacher of mine last time. She gave me lots of advice and obviously a good teacher. I still met her last year. Teacher .. just left ... tears coming out .. i noe .. there will be something bad is gonna happen, yet i never expect as bad as this. Look into my phone, scroll down the whole pile of list, trying to search someone that is from 5P3 last time .. yet, i failed to do so .. i dun hav any of their contacts .. WHAT THE ! I Couldnt believe it ! how can i jsut dun haf their numbers and esp on this kinda of time ?!

Pn Tan .. I cried in front of u .. yet can u actually see ? I couldnt stop my self been broke down right infront of u. I really respect u as a teacher of mine last time, even thou is just a short time, but what u haf teached is more than that. I will never forget the way u teach, the way u care for us. Looks fierce, but actually ur not. That nite... u was sleeping .. I was standing .. and slowly kneel down .. i mourned of the lost of u as a teacher.. but i'm glad that u are in heaven by now, rejoicing with the Lord. U left the world.. with emptiness and loneliness .. with those sweet memories .. is all bout history now, ur laughter and ur words.. are no longer been able to heard from ur mouth .. I'm sorry teacher .. u put high hope on me .. but yet i failed to achieve... I'm really sorry . I will by now, forever remember ur words that u spoke to me last time. Pn Tan .. I will see u 1 day.. 1 fine day .. i will be seeing u again.

Lord.. I really thanks for the chance that i get to noe Pn Tan as a wonderful teacher of mine. I duno will i actually like the subject if she never make it that interesting. Lord, I met her few times in school, yet i cant see the sign of her suffering from brain cancer. I noe that Lord, she has u in her mind. She believes that You will take good care of her. By now.. she haf left the world .. Take good care of her Lord, as she is now with you. How many years she had spent teaching students, and I guess now is the time for her to relax and talk to You face to face. I ask for Your favour Lord.. fill the emptiness that we feeling now, take away the loneliness, and take away the saddness of ours Lord. I thank you Lord for everything.. and I commit everything to Your hands Lord .. for You haf the wonderful plan for us. Thank You Lord .. And I commit everything to You .. I pray all things .. in Jesus name i prayed .. Amen ..